Last night my church put on a party for all of the volunteers for children's ministries and the ministries that help prepare people who wish to join the church. Since we are a large church this is a very big party. We always have a very nice dinner before the festivities begin. Last night on the menu was chick.en pi.ccata, grilled veggies, salad, rolls with garlic butter, shrimp, and stuffed shell pasta with red sauce. I went through the line the first time and filled my plate with a double serving of the veggies, a small breast of chicken, salad, and shrimp. When I finished I wasn't hungry and I had stuck to my diet as well as possible (the only "bad" part was the breading on the chicken, but I chose a piece with almost no breading). Of course, when I was finished I was really craving a roll with the yummy garlic butter and a stuffed shell. I have really been craving tomato sauce stuff lately... I seriously considered splurging for the night and having all those delicious carbs. However, I resisted. I tried to keep in mind how good I was feeling and how the numbers on the scale are going down. I was very proud of myself (although I was still craving that pasta...)
My reward came this morning. I still managed to loose 0.6 pounds! =) I'm switching my ticker!
In other news, my temp is messing with me. It is peak + 13 today. After 2 days of low temps yesterday's temp went up again, but today's was down again. I think, for my sanity's sake, I am going to continue to expect AF today. If she doesn't come today I will test tomorrow.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Nose Dive
I am peak +11 and my temp has plummeted 2 days in a row. I'm guessing AF is on her way. If that happens this would be my first cycle of temping that actually followed "the rules" of temping. That is actually kind of nice. I've never had any warning AF was on the way besides some cramps. I am a little disappointed, but not surprised. I don't think my L ovary works very well. For years I have had a pattern of one fairly normal cycle and one weird cycle on and off. I think my L ovary is retarded .
In other news, I am going to work today after 2 days of being home sick. I am still congested, but feeling much better. That's good because tomorrow is a long day at work. Hopefully I don't wear myself down too much and just relapse.
One last thing. I have a prayer request. One of my friends went to the March for Life in D.C. and was asked to pray for a girl who is pregnant, in college, and being pressured by her boyfriend and her parents to have an abortion. She has an appointment for today for "the procedure." Please pray for her. She is confused and went to see her campus minister for advice (that's how my friend knows... my friend is also a campus minister and heard through the prayer network). I am still in shock that her parents are pressuring her too. I think they are a Catholic family. Obviously they think a baby at this point in her life would ruin her life. If I knew her I would offer to adopt the baby myself. I hate that this is still happening in our world. I just don't understand how someone could kill a baby.
In other news, I am going to work today after 2 days of being home sick. I am still congested, but feeling much better. That's good because tomorrow is a long day at work. Hopefully I don't wear myself down too much and just relapse.
One last thing. I have a prayer request. One of my friends went to the March for Life in D.C. and was asked to pray for a girl who is pregnant, in college, and being pressured by her boyfriend and her parents to have an abortion. She has an appointment for today for "the procedure." Please pray for her. She is confused and went to see her campus minister for advice (that's how my friend knows... my friend is also a campus minister and heard through the prayer network). I am still in shock that her parents are pressuring her too. I think they are a Catholic family. Obviously they think a baby at this point in her life would ruin her life. If I knew her I would offer to adopt the baby myself. I hate that this is still happening in our world. I just don't understand how someone could kill a baby.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Good News, Bad News
Bad news first... I have the flu. It started as a sore throat this weekend and has turned into total body achy-ness, headache, congestion, runny nose, low grade fever, and fatigue. Monday I worked a half day and I stayed home all day Tuesday. I haven't decided if I'm going in to work today or not. I may take one more day just to make sure I am on the mend. Poor hubby is getting sick too. =(
Good news: I seem to be loosing a little over 0.5 pounds a day. Yesterday I lost 0.8 pounds from the previous day and today I lost 0.6 pounds. I think 0.6 pounds is great for a day of staying home sick and doing nothing! I know this loss is mostly due to my new candida diet. The only carbs I've been eating are in root veggies (which have more fiber anyway) and barley (also high in fiber). I still feel like I am fighting off yeast infections but it does feel a little more in control than it has in the last few months. I keep taking acidophilus and yesterday I had a little yogurt. I am hoping that I can start to add in a few more carbs in about a month. I guess we'll see. I am excited about the weight loss though. =)
Good news: I seem to be loosing a little over 0.5 pounds a day. Yesterday I lost 0.8 pounds from the previous day and today I lost 0.6 pounds. I think 0.6 pounds is great for a day of staying home sick and doing nothing! I know this loss is mostly due to my new candida diet. The only carbs I've been eating are in root veggies (which have more fiber anyway) and barley (also high in fiber). I still feel like I am fighting off yeast infections but it does feel a little more in control than it has in the last few months. I keep taking acidophilus and yesterday I had a little yogurt. I am hoping that I can start to add in a few more carbs in about a month. I guess we'll see. I am excited about the weight loss though. =)
Monday, January 21, 2008
Candida Strikes Again
I know it's been a little while since I posted (how often do I start a post like this?). I think I just need to give in and accept that I am a random poster. Sometimes I post daily and sometimes I wait a couple weeks.
I guess the biggest news is that I talked to my doctor on Friday. I had an ultrasound done on cd8 (yes, the really fun kind with "the wand") to look at my ovaries. I was still having that weird cramping/pinching/full feeling. I had a small cyst on my L ovary that was 2.4cm. I wasn't able to really talk to my doc that day because he got called out to do a surgery. He just came to talk to me for a few minutes because I had told the nurse that I suspected I had a very early m/c the cycle before. We chatted for a couple minutes, he ordered the u/s and then ran out. We agreed to talk by phone the next Friday (because my work schedule and his surgery schedule make it difficult to talk at a different time).
He said he wasn't worried about the cyst even though it was so big so early. So, I'm trying to just assume that the cyst did in fact release an egg. My temp was a little erratic, but it seems to have shifted up, so I suppose that is good. (Don't I sound confident?)
The main thing I wanted to discuss with him was my suspicion that I had candidiasis. I told him about having to eat yogurt every day to stave off thru.sh and yea.st infections, along with my other symptoms. I had spent the last week cutting down on carbs and following a modified candida diet. I was hoping that I could get away with a modified candida diet but my doc said I should start with the extreme diet for at least a month. So, I guess I am going (basically) carb-less for a while. I sort of started this weekend. I say "sort of" because all 3 days I had 1 meal that wasn't from the diet, but the rest of my meals were. We have run out of groceries so I need to go shopping. Unfortunately, the food I need is more expensive. =( I really need to plan out my menu. Also, I would like to get get a food processor. Does anyone know a good food processor that isn't too expensive?
The good news is that I have already lost 3 pounds from last Friday. It was fun to move my ticker this morning. =) I am currently on cd18, peak + 8... smack dab in the middle of the 2ww. I don't feel any symptoms. Of course, I've been sick the last few days so that may be masking some of my symptoms. I've been doing better emotionally. I haven't randomly burst into tears in about a week. I guess that's something. Hopefully, in a week, I can burst into tears for a good reason...
I guess the biggest news is that I talked to my doctor on Friday. I had an ultrasound done on cd8 (yes, the really fun kind with "the wand") to look at my ovaries. I was still having that weird cramping/pinching/full feeling. I had a small cyst on my L ovary that was 2.4cm. I wasn't able to really talk to my doc that day because he got called out to do a surgery. He just came to talk to me for a few minutes because I had told the nurse that I suspected I had a very early m/c the cycle before. We chatted for a couple minutes, he ordered the u/s and then ran out. We agreed to talk by phone the next Friday (because my work schedule and his surgery schedule make it difficult to talk at a different time).
He said he wasn't worried about the cyst even though it was so big so early. So, I'm trying to just assume that the cyst did in fact release an egg. My temp was a little erratic, but it seems to have shifted up, so I suppose that is good. (Don't I sound confident?)
The main thing I wanted to discuss with him was my suspicion that I had candidiasis. I told him about having to eat yogurt every day to stave off thru.sh and yea.st infections, along with my other symptoms. I had spent the last week cutting down on carbs and following a modified candida diet. I was hoping that I could get away with a modified candida diet but my doc said I should start with the extreme diet for at least a month. So, I guess I am going (basically) carb-less for a while. I sort of started this weekend. I say "sort of" because all 3 days I had 1 meal that wasn't from the diet, but the rest of my meals were. We have run out of groceries so I need to go shopping. Unfortunately, the food I need is more expensive. =( I really need to plan out my menu. Also, I would like to get get a food processor. Does anyone know a good food processor that isn't too expensive?
The good news is that I have already lost 3 pounds from last Friday. It was fun to move my ticker this morning. =) I am currently on cd18, peak + 8... smack dab in the middle of the 2ww. I don't feel any symptoms. Of course, I've been sick the last few days so that may be masking some of my symptoms. I've been doing better emotionally. I haven't randomly burst into tears in about a week. I guess that's something. Hopefully, in a week, I can burst into tears for a good reason...
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Funk and Candida
I noticed last night that I haven't posted in a while. I just haven't felt like I want to blog. I've been kind of like a turtle who hides in its shell. Every morning I wake up and feel fine for about an hour. Then the weight of my sadness seems to hit me and I break down and sob for a while. Then, I just walk around in a kind of fog during the day. Work has been really busy this week so that has been a good distraction. I haven't really been able to pray either. Yesterday was my adoration hour day. The most I can say is I showed up. I decided that I was doing pretty good to show up. I spent the time either just sitting or journaling. I've been like this since Christmas. Luckily, when my in-laws were in town they stayed in a hotel so I could have my breakdown at home and then act like a normal person in front of them.
I have tried to do some pro-active things, even while I'm in a funk. I have done some research into candidaisis. Does anyone know about this? It is basically an overgrowth of yeast in your body. I have been having a problem with thrush and yeast infections. If I don't eat yogurt every day then I get a flare up of one or the other. I have also read that there is a connection between candida and endo and ibs. I also have quite a few of the other symptoms associated with candida. So, I talked to my doctor and read up on how to combat this problem. Basically you have to go on a no carb/sugar, no dairy, all organic/natural/hormone free diet. It is actually a pretty extreme change for me. Also, it's a lot more expensive.
I decided to try easing into it to see how extreme I need to go. We are trying to buy meat that is hormone free and organic veggies when they are available. I am eating fewer carbs and cutting out "white" food. Basically when I eat carbs I am trying to eat whole grains instead of highly processed carbs and sugars. I'm also trying to up my exercise. I've managed to loose the few pounds I gained during the holidays, plus a pound so I got to adjust my ticker this morning.
I have also been having this weird achey/bruised feeling on my right side. It feels better with heat and hurts more when it's cold. It's been there for about a week (on and off). I'm starting to wonder if I developed a cyst on my right ovary. If it's still there next week I'll ask my gyno if he will do an ultrasound.
Well, that's basically me right now. Hubby and I are going for a walk so I need to log.
I have tried to do some pro-active things, even while I'm in a funk. I have done some research into candidaisis. Does anyone know about this? It is basically an overgrowth of yeast in your body. I have been having a problem with thrush and yeast infections. If I don't eat yogurt every day then I get a flare up of one or the other. I have also read that there is a connection between candida and endo and ibs. I also have quite a few of the other symptoms associated with candida. So, I talked to my doctor and read up on how to combat this problem. Basically you have to go on a no carb/sugar, no dairy, all organic/natural/hormone free diet. It is actually a pretty extreme change for me. Also, it's a lot more expensive.
I decided to try easing into it to see how extreme I need to go. We are trying to buy meat that is hormone free and organic veggies when they are available. I am eating fewer carbs and cutting out "white" food. Basically when I eat carbs I am trying to eat whole grains instead of highly processed carbs and sugars. I'm also trying to up my exercise. I've managed to loose the few pounds I gained during the holidays, plus a pound so I got to adjust my ticker this morning.
I have also been having this weird achey/bruised feeling on my right side. It feels better with heat and hurts more when it's cold. It's been there for about a week (on and off). I'm starting to wonder if I developed a cyst on my right ovary. If it's still there next week I'll ask my gyno if he will do an ultrasound.
Well, that's basically me right now. Hubby and I are going for a walk so I need to log.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Still Nope -- Updated
14dpo. Temp went back up but Fi.rst Res.ponse had 1 line. I definitely feel pg. I think this is going to be another m/c like last time. =( =(
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It's 16dpo now and I finally started bleeding (well, it's brown and black). I had some very intense shooting cramps when I started. This is just like my last m/c, just a few days earlier. Even though I never got a bfp I'm sure I was pg, just with really low hcg numbers. I've never had a luteal phase longer than 13 days, but usually it's 11-12 days.
This sucks! And, my in-laws are in town so I have to play host and put on a happy face. So much for my fantasy about being ecstatic while they are here and giving hubby a pg for his birthday (he's a New Years baby).
I have made some decisions about some proactive things I can do to try and help myself, but I will have to blog about that later.
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It's 16dpo now and I finally started bleeding (well, it's brown and black). I had some very intense shooting cramps when I started. This is just like my last m/c, just a few days earlier. Even though I never got a bfp I'm sure I was pg, just with really low hcg numbers. I've never had a luteal phase longer than 13 days, but usually it's 11-12 days.
This sucks! And, my in-laws are in town so I have to play host and put on a happy face. So much for my fantasy about being ecstatic while they are here and giving hubby a pg for his birthday (he's a New Years baby).
I have made some decisions about some proactive things I can do to try and help myself, but I will have to blog about that later.
More Twinges
It is the end of 13dpo and still no AF. My temp was down some this morning, but I'm not sure how much stock to put in that because I woke up over an hour early and decided to take my temp then because I really had to get up to use the bathroom. I continued to feel periodic twinges today, but I also felt some cramping this morning. My worst fear is that I am pg, but that it's not a strong pg and I will m/c like last time. Last time I didn't get a bfp until 16dpo and it was really faint. I have one more Fir.st Res.ponse that I will use tomorrow am with fmu if my temp is back up. Hope has creeped back in though. Maybe I am pg and this one will stick. I hope so because I'm not sure how I will handle another m/c.
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