Saturday, May 31, 2008
God please protect Trish and Baby C ("Tater") today and in the months to come. Keep them safe and healthy and help Tater grow big and strong.
St. Gerard, please lift up Trish and Tater in your prayers and intercede on their behalf.
Trish gave birth to Robert Michael C. at 11:22am and he is doing very well! Yeah! Please click over to her blog to give support and to see pictures of a beautiful (and tiny) baby boy!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Thanks to all of you who have been commenting! I signed up to be a part of NaComLeavMo and I am in the process of figuring out how to put the icon in my sidebar. I will be around the blogsphere, but it will take me a little while to get caught up on reading all the posts from the weekend.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
In other news, I will be 20w tomorrow. It feels good to hit the half-way mile stone. Now, I'm trying to hold on until 24w. My next u/s is during week 24 too, so that should be a good week (hopefully). Baby is still doing well. Yesterday Baby was kicking up a storm most of the day, so that was encouraging.
I'll be back on Sunday night. Hopefully I'll be well-rested and peaceful too. =)
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Frankly, I was really taken off guard. On the authority of MANY sources, I thought morning sickness wasn't a problem after the 1st tri was over... Monday I had another food aversion warning as I was fixing my breakfast. This time, I heeded the warning and ate something different (and very plain!). I still felt a little queasy, but I didn't loose anything. I had another food smell aversion at dinner time last night and, again, chose something plain instead. This morning I didn't notice any aversions, so hopefully I won't have to look at my breakfast again.
If this problem continues, I will ask my doc about it. Is this normal? I haven't heard of any stories of morning sickness showing up for the first time in the 2nd tri. I guess someone has to be the exception, I'm just not sure I'm happy being that person...
In other news, baby is still alive and kicking. Life is still good. =)
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
The second piece of not great news is that my blood pressure was quite a bit higher. Normally I am around 110/65. Today I was 138/82. I told the doc that I have been stressed and haven't been sleeping well. He told me I needed to take it easy and I shouldn't be working overtime. I told him that my schedule should be better now and that I shouldn't need to work overtime for a while. Hopefully that will help. I think hubby is finally on board to come walk with me in the mornings. I think that will also help us with staying healthy and feeling like we have some time to spend together. If my bp is still high at the next apt I will start to worry about it more. In the mean-time, I will just try to do more "healthy" things to help myself.
Overall I am feeling very happy and relieved. Our DVD worked in the machine this time so hopefully I will be able to figure out how to get some u/s pictures to post here. Hubby is working on trying to get the DVD to play in something. In the meantime, I think I might take a nap. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us and for all the supportive comments over the last few weeks. I know I have been kind of chica negativa lately. I think my attitude will be improved from now on. My schedule has finally let up some and I am feeling a lot more confident about this pg. Life is good! =)
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I know I sound crazy, but I would really appreciate prayers, good wishes, etc. sent my way. Tomorrow, after everything is ok, I will pull out of this self-centered paranoid crap.
Just to end on a more positive note, I felt the baby move "for sure" yesterday. I have had some experiences that "might" have been the baby for a few weeks, but yesterday was definitely the baby. I was sitting at work typing something. All of a sudden it felt like bubbles were brushing up against the inside of my belly. It happened about 4-5 times. It was a beautiful, wonderful, happy moment! I have been checking in on the baby about every other day with the doppler (holding steady at 150 beats/min), but feeling the baby was A LOT more exciting!
Friday, May 9, 2008
I have mixed feelings about this. It seems like their children are well cared for and loved, which is the most important thing. I do think that letting God guide your fertility choices is a good thing. I also really believe that every couple has to discern what God is calling them to in regards to their family. I feel a "but" or a "however" looming in the back of my head, but I can't seem to put it into words. Maybe it's a little bit of lingering jealousy that it seems so easy for them? I'm not sure. For now, it looks like there will probably be another Duggar in the world in 9 months...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Case in point: May 3rd has been my goal date for a couple months. May 3rd marked the official end of all kid oriented scheduling in my program for this school year. The rest of the events that I am responsible were supposed to be "minor" in comparison and are adult focused. May 3rd also marked the last Saturday I was scheduled to work until June 7th (ahh, weekend sleeping in bliss!). So, I woke up early on May 4th only to roll out of bed and go to work/church. It was the last day of another kid program in my department so I needed to be present. OK, I can handle that because it is a regular Sunday schedule for me. No biggie, right? Except, since I have been so focused on May 3rd, I forgot all the detail stuff I needed to finish for a departmental development day on Tuesday (today...). So, May 4th and 5th were spent squeezing the planning in between regularly scheduled work. Oh, and of course there are those training sessions the 4 Mondays of May that I have to be around for (luckily, I am not leading the training!!!).
What does this mean? It means that I worked a 13 hour day yesterday so that I would be prepared for last night's training and today's "fun and relaxing" development day. I means that I just swapped one set of stresses for a new set of stresses and that the break in the clouds I was promised (I promised to myself?) was a mirage. It means that I am feeling disillusioned by my own schedule.
Does anyone else have this problem? I am starting to feel like I need a different approach to life. I constantly feel like I am living for "someday" rather than living in the moment. Sure, I have brief encounters where I am able to appreciate the "here and now," but these are the exception not the rule. I feel like I am stuck. I have to plan ahead with my job! Otherwise I would be reduced to tears everyday, overwhelmed by the constant barrage of tasks and people that battle for my attention. In one sense, my schedule/calendar/to-do list is my saving grace. However, that same schedule/calendar/to-do list also serves to remind me that there is no end in sight. I need a break in the clouds. How do you create a space of calm in the midst of the storm?
I will gladly accept all suggestions, comments, and assvice.