Saturday, October 13, 2007

Yet Again, CD1

It's CD1 today. It did come the "regular" time after I think I O'd, so that's good. I didn't have the usual pre-cramps twinges and my cramps today are a little worse than normal. However, my flow doesn't seem to have clots (at least so far... knock on wood) which is good news. It does make me wonder about the menses I had the cycle before my bfp, which had very heavy clotting. DH thinks I might have had a very early m/c that cycle because I had a lot of clots and really thick blood. My period started 13dpo and I never poas so I don't know for sure. I would prefer to think that my body was just getting rid of some endometriosis. And, speaking of choosing to think of things in a positive light, this marks the beginning of the 2nd cycle after my m/c which means that we can start trying again next cycle. Hopefully I will be pregnant 2 months from now. Our 2nd anniversary is Dec. 3rd. A BFP would be a great anniversary present...

I talked to my doc's office yesterday and they said that some of my labs are complete but they wanted to wait until they had the whole work-up before talking to me about the results. So, they should know by Tuesday what the results are. I'm not too nervous. I had some tests done a few years ago for clotting issues and things came back within normal limits. So, the tests this time around are more of a pre-caution because I did have a clotting issue as a toddler. I am just looking for some reassurance that the clotting issues haven't returned.

In other news, I turn 31 tomorrow. 31 years of life, 22 months of marriage, 19 months TTC, 1 pg, and 0 babies living in my house. I did have a nice time a my party last night though. We had some friends over and ate tacos and played dominos and laughed. It was fun. I didn't let myself think about losing my baby most of the night. When I do let myself think about it I am overcome with a wave of grief that threatens to bring me to my knees. I hope my grief dulls at least a little some time soon.

7 comments:

Fertilize Me said...

Sounds like good things are happening this month. HAPPY 31!!! ( I just turned 31 this yr too) I am glad that you celebrated.

jenn said...

I just stumbled over to your blog & I wanted to wish you a happy birthday- mine is tomorrow (15th)! I'm sorry it's come at such a time, but hopefully it's the start of the best year.

Katie said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I am sad that CD 1 came, but glad that the timing was good and that now you can start again! Here we go!

underthewillow said...

Happy Birthday!

Again, I'm sorry for all that your have gone through and all the grief in your heart. You are in our prayers.

Searching said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your grief is what you feel and you suffered a huge loss. It's okay to have it hurt but I hope it dulls a bit for you too.

I am glad you were able to have a decent birthday (happy belated!). Every year older is an awesome accomplishment considering the world today. And the fact that you are married and aren't yet in jail for killing your husband (I've survived nearly 1.5 years with this goal complete, too! Pesky little beasties those hubbies can be!) :)

Amanda said...

Happy Birthday!

I am sorry for your loss. I, too, hope the grief lessens, soon. You are in my thoughts!

And good luck with the TTC!!!

Mrs. B said...

Well Happy Birthday. Here is my Brithday wish for you:

May you know only happiness in this coming year.

May you be blessed with more blessings than you know what to do with in this coming year.

May your marriage be wonderful and produce wonderful things this year

And finally, may your one true wish come true this year and let it be the happiest wish of your life.

Thank you for being so supportive of this crappy month I've had!!