I just noticed how long it had been since I last posted. I'm sorry for the silence. I have been around reading other people's blogs, I just haven't felt like writing myself. I'm doing ok (considering the circumstances). Yesterday I was pretty emotional, but most days I just do my best not to think about our loss. I had spiritual direction on Monday and that was really good for me. My director gave me some homework (tips for taking better care of myself mainly). I haven't really done my homework yet, but I want to (which is a step in the right direction). This week we were late coming home almost every day, so it was kind of a tiring week. (And, I have to work tomorrow morning for a few hours. :( I'm NOT excited about getting up early an extra day!)
My husband got a call today to schedule an interview for Monday. We really need the extra income, so any prayers you want to throw our way would be appreciated.
I will try to be better at posting.
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About Me
- Fat Girl
- My name is Fat Girl and I am obese. I have recently come to realize this and have decided to do something about it. This blog will chronicle my experiences as I journey toward a skinny version of me.
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Infertility Rant
I wish people wouldn't assume that if you want to have a baby all you have to do is have sex a few times (at most) and it will happen. I wish people didn't feel like they are entitled to ask me if I am planning on having children (a very personal question, in my opinion) at the first introduction. I wish people could respond with something other than "you can always adopt" upon learning that I struggle with infertility. It would be nice if they could also refrain from telling me stories about people who struggled for 5, 6, 7...12 years before they finally had a baby. Sometimes our bodies don't do what we want them to do. Thinking that I will probably have to struggle with this for another 10+ years does not help me feel better.
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Fertility History (Or, Our Life at the Doctor's Office)
- 9/30/08 Son is born healthy after 36 hours of labor!! =)
- 6/6/08 22weeks and all looks good!
- 1/28/08 BFP--cautiously optimistic
- 1/4/08 Early M/C at 4w3d
- 9/16/07 Miscarriage
- 9/11/07 BFP!!
- Aug 07 Positive OPK! then (of course) BFN
- July 07 boogie marathons with OPKs for the next few months - cycles FINALLY seem stable
- July 07 DH diagnosed with varicocele, but has "normal" sperm (surprise!) - what a difference a lab and doctor make! No surgery necessary: BFN
- June 07 2nd and 3rd SA tests for DH at an endrology lab: BFN
- May 07 Apt with 3rd urologist (specialist)... more tests: BFN
- May 07 Apt with 2nd urologist, referred to specialist
- April 07 Start Accupuncture for endo (go for 12 visits) - seemed to help with pain control, hopefully got rid of endo too: BFN
- Mar 07 Apt with crap urologist... NOT returning - recommended surgery without confirming diagnosis!
- Mar 07 DH's 1st SA at a non-specialty lab - very low motility
- Mar 07 Tired of BFNs: Laparoscopy, Hysteroscopy, and Chromotubation - Diagnosis: Stage 4 endo on right side around ureter (too dangerous to operate without specialist)... did remove endo from uterus. Good news: tubes clear and no cysts on ovaries (although ovaries still enlarged)
- Nov 06 Dianosed with PCOS - start taking Metformin: still all cycles = BFN
- June 06 Move across the country: have only seen BFNs
- Mar 06 Started actively TTC: BFN
- Dec 05 Married my Soul Mate!
- Oct 05 Diagnosed with low progesterone levels - started on Progesterone during LP to help short LP and break through bleeding in middle of cycle
- Sept 05 Series of blood tests in attempt to diagnose crazy cycles
- Spring 04 Start charting cycles (trying to diagnose why so crazy: some long, some short, heavy bleeding, some annovulatory cycles)
What Does that Mean?
- 2WW = Two Week Wait, the weeks after ovulation and before menses
- AF = Aunt Flo (menses)
- B/W = Bloodwork
- BBT = Basal Body Temperature
- BD = Baby Dance
- Beta = Blood pregnancy test to check the amount of HCG (pregnancy hormone)
- BFN = Big Fat Negative (pregnancy test)
- BFP = Big Fat Positive (pregnancy test)
- CD# = Cycle Day #
- CM = Cervical Mucus
- DPO = Days Past Ovulation
- Endo = Endometriosis
- FMU = First Morning Urine
- HCG = Hormone level that increases when pregnant
- HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
- IF = Infertility
- IUI = Intrauterine Insemination
- M/C = Miscarriage
- M/S = Morning Sickness
- OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit
- PCOS = Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
- PG/Preggers = Pregnant
- RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist
- SA = Semen Analysis
- TTC = Trying to Conceive
- U/S = Ultrasound
- WTO = Waiting To Ovulate
- WTT = Waiting To Test
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5 comments:
this is your blog, you blog when you want to about what you want to! I am sorry you have to work tomorrow. I hope you get some good rest/relaxation time in
We understand about the posting thing. When you are ready we will be here for you.
I certainly can't complain about you not blogging. I am very guilty of slacking lately. Sometimes I just don't have the time, energy, or thoughts to write something. I check in on you when I can and when you need to blog I'll read.
I will pray for your hubby's interview, too.
Take care!
It's hard to blog sometimes. It's far easier to read what's going on in the lives of friends that to offer something to share. :)
We'll say a prayer for your hubby's interview.
Sometimes, posting it just too much. It is painful at times to get the words out. We understand. And we are here for you. Also, I think that is is wonderful that in the midst of your sadness, you are able to offer support to others. That is the mark of a truly good person. I know the pain of an early miscarriage, so if you need anything, just let me know.
soupgirl79@aol.com
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